i seriously dont know if can do this, fucking false sense of security. i opened up tonight, really opened up and for fucking what? to find out that actually, there are still 2 of us. if he wants to be himself, then let go of the past, if he wants to be helen, then be helen. but dont switch. i cant do this. end of. i cant. not with her there. i refuse. i refuse to be part of a game.